I’m really lost in my own head tonight. I’m always find myself in this state of wanting to block things out but I’m missing my life when I do that (whether its binge watching shows, or sleeping, or drinking myself stupid). I don’t know where to go and I keep trying to carry myself through with hardly any moral support because I’m a distraction and feel like a burden when I appear weak.
I just keep buckling under it and starting back at square one, and I hope one day I make it or find someone to help me shoulder it. I envy people who seem to have it all together whether they do or not. So many people my age are working lucrative jobs, starting families, doing fun things, and I can’t seem to keep my ass focused for more than a few months. There must be a way through this.